I’ve come to find that we can never truly have the things that we want most. Perhaps it’s just some cruelty that the universe finds funny.. I’ll never know the reason but I’ll always feel the burn
Tonight has been an enlightening night..
I only have one goal.
I lived my whole life trying to impress my indifferent father. I realize now that I dont have to do that anymore. I just want to be happy. Happier than my father could ever hope to be by doing the things I’m passionate about versus the things that are profitable. I just want to go.. to where I’m not so sure, but I’ll know what I get there. True happiness comes from within.. I just can’t believe it took so long to get it together.
I’ve come to realize most people aren’t worth my time, not to sound like a terrible person or anything, but if I don’t find a connection beneficial, I’m not going to waste the time and effort in maintaining it.
just let me die right now. please. I’ll go quietly and peacefully. just let me die
I miss meaning something to someone.
Forever alone?
Will I always be forever alone? I wonder about that a lot. There’s a lot to me that people don’t really understand, and I don’t really want to compromise and lower my standards. I need someone who hates the things I do, can smoke with me, and watch law and order with me.. obviously there’s more to it than that. she needs to be an intellectual.. a thinker. Someone who isn’t afraid to think about the big questions in life. I need someone who I can lay in bed with and ponder about etiology and epistemology… someone that knows how to have a good time.
